It was about 11 months ago I posted about "Trust." It's not a lesson that I have learned overnight, and to be honest, it's one that I need to work on everyday. It's easy to say and even tell someone else, "Just trust the Lord!" The Lord is continually teaching me to trust Him. He has proved himself over and over that He is in control of my life and loves me so much more than I can imagine.
You know, it's sort of strange...I learned Proverbs 3:5,6 when I was a kid in Awanas. It was one of those verses that seemed to be in every book to complete. So, I memorized it in my head. I'm finding that the Lord is now letting me memorize it in my heart. Each word becomes precious and I feel like it's meant for me. It has helped me when I must put these verses into practice.
This past month has been another time of putting those verses at work. My Joshua had a checkup with the doctor. They noticed his weight was down and wanted to do some blood work. The doctor called me the next day to let me know his Bilirubin is high and we need to do some further testing. We went back to the doctor this past week for further blood work and discussing what to do. If his bilirubin is still high, but all other tests come back normal, then he most likely has Gilbert's Syndrome. The doctor said this is a non destructive process and it's just how Josh is. He will have a higher than normal bilirubin for the rest of his life that will most likely worsen when he is sick. But it won't effect his liver and he will be fine. If any of the other tests do come back abnormal, then Josh will need to see a doctor specializing in the liver. He is concerned about Josh's weight because lack of appetite can go hand in hand with liver disease. But, when Josh got on the scale, the doctor was thrilled that in 3 weeks his weight had gone up 7 pounds! Please be praying for my boy. We should hear results on Monday.
Trust...it's definitely one of those lessons that when you're practicing complete trust in the Lord, you have such peace. God is so good to us!