As I've read over the comments and emails, I've been so overwhelmed. To have someone pray for me is a treasure. Thank you so very much dear friends!
I hesitated to even post my last blog post because so often over the last 4 years I've posted asking prayer for my health. For us, we go through many emotions as we feel we could be getting closer to the reason for my pain. The visit with the Pulmonologist brought back many emotions that we've faced in the past. The look on the doctor's face of "I really don't know what's going on" can be quite discouraging.
The new doctor was very kind, but honestly he was stumped. He doesn't feel it's necessary to further investigate the "cystic lesion." My lungs are functioning normal, and that was his main concern and the lesion is not inside the lungs. We are thankful for that. But, the pain is still there. He would like to order another bone scan .
My primary doctor has talked about possibly getting a second opinion at UF Shands about the lesion. She has a fear of not finding a doctor to investigate this problem. There aren't any specialist that deal with that area between the lungs and the heart. Since it's a holiday weekend, we are at a stand still.
When I came home yesterday, I was quite discouraged. Sometimes it feels as if our life is on hold waiting for answers. Then, as I was drying my tears, my girls went to the piano. I don't even know if they realized what they were doing for me. But, they began to sing. And even though my situation is the same and we aren't closer to an answer, I was reminded about the great God we serve. I don't see the answers. I don't have an answer of why. But God does. He sees our storm from the other side.
When the storm raged about them, the disciples were afraid.
For the waves were high and the ship was tossed, they could not find their way.
Then, they awoke the Master, saying, "Lord please save us now."
He rebuked the wind and the sea grew calm and they all wondered how.
Like the man on the sea did, I have called on God in prayer.
When it seemed to me all hope was gone, and in my deep despair.
I remembered what the Lord said when He calmed that troubled sea.
And I know once more how He sees the storm. And peace floods over me.
God sees the storm from the other side.
He knows the lessons learned and just beyond the cloud He sees clear skies.
He speaks peace to the raging storm when peace could not be found.
He already sees the rainbow. When we see only clouds.
When the storm of life come crashing in and covers me, I can feel God's arms around me, and He whispers "Let it be."
And since every post needs a happy picture, I thought I would post this one of me and my 7. My family is so supportive and amazing.
So, once again, Thank you for praying. It means so much to me.
