As for me...

 A phrase jumped out at me this morning during my devotions.  Psalm 18:15 says, "As for me, I will behold thy face in righteousness;  I shall be satisfied, when I awake, with thy likedness."

Filling in the blanks, it's what we do when we're in school, hoping for the right answer.  As we grow older, the whole idea of filling in the blanks continues.  God gives us lives to live as we please and we get to make choices and decisions to shape the life we have.  Of course, as a good heavenly Father, He desires for us to make good choices and to retain the lessons we've learned, but ultimately, He leaves those choices up to us.  We get to fill in the blanks.  So, when I came to Psalm 18 this morning and saw two of those "fill in the blank" phrases, it caused me to ask myself what I would put.

As for me, I will _______.

Like I mentioned last post, my mind has been whirling with things I want to do and want to be.  Sometimes those goals and dreams are from the Lord, but sometimes they are distractions that try to trip me up and lose my focus.  That's why I have to come to the Lord everyday, bright and early. I must start my day with Him.  Psalm 143:8 is becoming so real to me.  Each day I must fill in this blank, "As for me, I will...."

The other blank I found this morning was later in the verse where it says, "I shall be satisfied, when I awake, with______."  The Psalmist was satisfied with the image of Christ. He was satisfied with everything about the Lord.  It made me ask, "How about me? What really satisfies me?"  When I awake, what do I look forward to and plan.  What are my goals and desires.   I am realizing more and more that if my goals and desires are not from the Lord, I won't truly be satisfied when I lay my head on my pillow that night.  I will have fruitless days, seeking my own pursuits.  I will end up worrying and being fretful throughout my day.  My focus will be lost. 

So today, I am wanting to fill in those blanks with the Lord in mind.

As for me, I will:

choose joy.

smile extra at my husband and kiddos.

not be distracted with the cares and thoughts of the world.

look for the good.

fear the Lord throughout the day as I'm reminded of His presence.

be productive in blessing my home as I seek to be a "wise woman that builds".

abide in Him.

I shall be satisfied with: 

thoughts of Christ as I purposefully look at the blessings He's given me.

the simpleness of feeling the breeze on my face while on my porch swing and hearing my kids play in the yard.

His Word, as I seek to meditate on it through the day.

little messes that need cleaned up, because that means my home is lived in by my dear family.

this day that I get to live and will never have again.  

in His goodness.